oh taste and see

i have recently been thinking. and thinking a lot. so much that it is probably driving me crazy and i have to stop.
and these are things that have been driving me crazy:
1. the past year (job, relationships)
2. the two years before that. (my time in poland)

i really thought that i would be 'over' my time in poland. that i would have let it go. but i haven't. i have actually learned this past weekend after thinking about it, that i am bitter towards missions. i just have a nasty taste in my mouth of it. even though that is what i did in poland.(weird i know. i am planning on studying more about missions just to learn the history and purpose of it from the word.)

but i must move on from there. to let it go. and continue to seek Him through it all.

i heard a quote recently from momma t(mother theresa) that goes something like this "we are not called to be successful, but faithful." it has been ringing in my ears as i reflect on my time in poland. it wasn't all that often that i was told to be faithful while there....but i know that HE was so faithful to me. which is utterly amazing.

so anyways, my spiritual life has been a little interesting recently. but this is the one thing that i can cling to:
psalm 34:8
taste and see that the LORD is good;
blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.